Back to Reality

Tomorrow is the day I head back to Halifax. In other words I'm heading back to reality.
As expected, I'm dreading it a little bit. Don't get me wrong, Halifax is a nice city. But it's not for me. I don't really enjoy living this. Partly because I don't really have anyone to share it with, and partly because to plan something, you have to plan hours in advance to account for transportation times.
I would never do well in a bigger city. I'm definitely used to being a small town girl. Or small city girl, because I enjoyed living in Moncton and that's considered a city.

Anyway back to the point.
I had a wonderful Christmas vacation once I was around more people than just myself. Going to the hometown was enjoyable since I had a chance to spend time with my mother and siblings. And then eventually I had the chance to reunite with J after almost 6 weeks of not seeing him. It's going to be another 6-7 weeks before I see him again, and maybe that's why travelling back to Halifax is so daunting.
There's also the part that I haven't quite made any new friends while living in Halifax. Sure I've hung out with some girls in my program, but those events were Nutrition student group events. I don't get invited out with them if they plan to go out for dinner or drinks. And I haven't quite found a group to fit in with. So that bothers me.
I even cried about it a few times while on vacation as tomorrow drew closer and closer. J knew something was bothering me so just held onto me as I cried. That's something I'll miss the most while in Halifax. The feeling of his arms around me, just being him and there in the flesh.

Oh well. I will survive. I always do. It'll just take many tears, and maybe trying a little harder to be more outspoken around my classmates.
I do have other friends in the city, but I don't get to see them often as they are students as well at other universities or have busy jobs. But I do see them every few weeks/months. So it's not all bad. I'm just being a bit mopey right now.

Maybe it's time to cuddle with J for a little bit before bed. It'll be the last time for a while and I've got to make every minute count :)